bismillah n assalamualaikum minna-san~

 hyuu~~ im home for a brief period after 1 month being stuck in KTT.. truthfully, i didnt feel it ws like a month bcos of a few possible reasons.. first, cause my family sometimes visits me there.. 2nd, time flies! 3rd, mayb im to engrossed in studying for my big exam.. pegh..that dosent sound like me talking rite? haha.. well, thats me... desperate situation calls for desperate actions! [[grrh i dunno what exactly the phrase is but u get the drift.. =]]

 seriously, ive got many things to blab here but time is the limitting factor.. hmm lets see... i'll just jot a few things i rmmbr n these r not in cronology.. huhuu..

 feskott! or festival sukan kolej teknologi timur... it ws held a week b4 our trial! crazy huh?! smhw i ended up in aerobics!! grrh!! but it ws fun while it lasts.. they were short of people, so there i ws... n we evn won 2nd place!! that ws a great laugh! cos we did many mistakes n blablabla... haih~

 there ws sth else but i cant rmmbr.... grh... nway.. its pre-AS now.. well, its almost over actually... n 2 weeks aft this, we'll be sitting for the real AS! n we just discovered b4 our pre, that our university application would depend on our AS!! not on the whole A-level result! gaaan~!! i really have to give everything ive got!!

4As in AS is ur future bluegreen!!
4As is not easy to get, but it is also NOT IMPOSSIBLE!!
Go all out!!
Ganbatte!!

huhu.. that's what i pasted on the wall in front of my bed...
please pray that i achieve everything i aimed for!
thanx!

wassalam..bye!!

p/s: sorry if this post seems kinda short n no-like-me-ish.. =p i cant type as i used to n i cant turn on my blogging mind smhw... [[excuses! ^^!]]

bismillah n assalamualaikum minna-san~!

   hyuu~~ im home again~ n this time its bcus ive some serious parasitic invasion to eradicate.. huhu.. wtvr.. dont ask.. i ws like 70% against going home cause i know time would b wasted on doing everything that wouldnt help me get 4As in the coming AS which is in fact just around the selekoh... =p [[seriously..everybody's writing AS is around the corner in their shoutout at frenster. ]]

   everybody's in exam mode these days.. n so am i.. [[i hope]] time is running out!! so many to study n time is like speeding by on a ferrari! at this kind of a time, just keep your head clear bluegreen! worrying abt things wont quite help out! just do your best with what time that is given to you! believe in Allah but dont forget to believe in yourself!!

   i think mr.razib n mr.zaini really burned our spirits... well yeah sometimes we got a little over burned but the pain of getting burned reminds us of the mistakes we've made.. you wont touch a hot thing twice rite? and the success of others also gives some motivation... ielts results for the indon bound students were pasted infront of the academic office... the heighest band reached is 8.5 earned by 3 non-malays... 8 bands collected a bunch of, also, non-malay students... and there were like less than a handful of malays who got 7.5... my resolve is to get at least band 8 for ielts!! i want to prove that malays can! huhuu.. i've to polish my writing, work on my speaking, sharpen my listening and information transfering skills as well as my reading... i've got to start by reading academic articles!! i noticed chinese students always read the newspaper! n they dont look for chinese news first.. they read NST n star first, then they turn to chinese papers... huhuuu... i must b like them..

   ok then.. this lappy needs to b packed up... the big comp's mother board or sth is not in working condition... n i happen to b the last person using it... why does everything tend to wreck when i use it? haiyo...

wassalam..bye!

p/s: sometimes i dont get ppl... or is it the other way around?? i must remind myself of a hadis which meant sth like if you see someone doing sth bad or "mungkar" , try correcting it with your hands (or actions), if u are unable, use words, and if u're still unable to do that, then it is enough to hate it in our heart n pray that the person doing the mungkar would b given guidence and tht wud b of the weakest iman..... i dunno if its the same with my case.. i was able to try n correct smbdy wth words, but i ws unsuccessfull... what shud i do now? am i to settle on merely hating n praying for that person? huu~~

bismillah and assalamualaikum minna-san~

   ohiaiyo gozaimasu~ huhu.. im at ummi's [[my classmate]] appartment using mel's [[all17]] lappy to update my dear ol bloggy aft doing some silly [[on my part that is]] aerobics! haha... i slept over at ba'yah's appartment last nite cause there's only me n ayu at ours.... =p ayu slept at ummi's... im making a sojourn here b4 i go back to our own appartment n get ready to go to giant....

   my purple chrysanthemum [[named poko-chan!]] is wilting! well that's not the main thing... parts of me is wilting! heh.. i know i sound ridiculous.. but thats how i think i feel.. i can't seem to be left alone... or i cant let my mind be stagnant or sth.. cause then it'll be diverted to sth i'm trying to reconcile... and im failling at that... i think, one of the things that i find hard to accept is taking stupid actions... especially when it is succeeded with an extremely unpleasant event....

   i've cried my eyes out... ive cried myself to sleep... ive cried more than a litre of tears..[[heh]] but i can still cry over it.... i dont know when i'll be able to reconcile... i dont know when my mind will cease wandering away and replaying the unfortunate event... i dont know when i can stop crying... dont cry! crying over it wont give you anything! it wont make anything right! but myb i'll feel better...mayb i'll get tired of crying... so just let me cry as much n as long n as many times i want... :'(  

   im wilting... i look ok... i sound fine... but plain words n things that are even distantly related to it can trigger my mind to revisit the night it happened.... im trying... i can get over it... its just a matter of time...

   "It has been said that time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone." -Rose Kennedy

wassalam..bye!
ja ne!

p/s: pray for my wholly health and well being.. =) pre-AS is in 4 weeks! and AS starts on May 15th! time is flying!
       today is election day... i hate election season.. i think the country is most unpeaceful during this time... i dont like politics... but i'll support n vote for what i think and know is right... 

bismillah and assalamualaikum minna-san~

hyuu hyuu~ evn tho im on holiday i still wont update more.. why? cause i think i dont have time! yes.. time.. heh... why no time? i think cause i kinda limit myself to write at night time only... why? cause i think i can write better at nite... why? cause thats just me making excuses =p   ^ ^

   speaking of time... there're many2 phrases n quotes regarding time... the most common one is ofcourse "time is money!"... yes.. its extremely valuble but no its not like money...  nway, the best one i've heard is "masa it kehidupan..." or "time is LIFE!" yes i totally agree... and time is also our greatest treasure, as our life is.. right? so masa itu juge harta! ok i know i sound a bit _______ but this is just me trying to tell myself how i've been so baka... yes... ive been wasting my time with i dunno what all this holiday... the great stack of books i brought back was seldomly touched or even looked at! and ive still havent done thorough research for the debate... i dunno how im gonna do it... i dont have facts!! my brain cells aren't occupied with general knowledge! my tounge is not fluent in english! at this rate i'll really embarass myself in front of all MARA students..if im lucky, the whole college!

   last weekend i went to ms.shima's [[my class teacher n physics lecturer]] wedding with ba'yah! b4 that i met tikah n somehow acompanied her to klcentral where she left for kmpk by bus... arigatou for the usa-chan cakey ne!! n gomen i didnt treat u any cakey!! i will tho i promise!! at klcentral we ate at mcd with her rum8 shina [[duno how to spell beh.. ^^]] n rite after they went off to get on the bus, ba'yah called saying she's arrived.. so then we both set off to klang station then took a taxi [[which btw costs 20rggt]] to ms.shima's house! n there we found our classm8 aiman n a few guys by their car getting ready to set off home! so we asked if we could hitch a ride home with them n lucky us they didnt mind! huhuu... so after eating + taking pics with the bride n groom we went with the guys.. they made a detour to the aeon building? i dunno what that place is supposed to b called but its in bukit tinggi, klang.. so they detoured there 4 solat n ate again! me n ba'yah didnt tho.. we looked around but most of the time sat on a bench cause our heels were killing us! huhu...

   last 2 days i went to low yat with abah and bought a new buddy... today i went to subang parade n then to jusco klang with my parents + nabilah... went to mph at subang parade but cant seem to find the medical breakthroughs book... then finally found it at popular bookstore in jusco... hahaha... n they were putting on frh's 2face album the whole time i ws there! ^ ^

   i really dont wanna go back to ktt... but i dont want to stay at home either... dont wanna go back cause there's that debate thing... and then there's a hell of a bad news to recieve... [[bad news = bad results]] but i dont wanna stay here cause my brain cells are getting flaccid by the minute... heh...

   i'm watching another jdorama currently.. taiyou no uta.. what ive observed so far is, japanese drama is not just something on the surface, know wht i mean? it usually has a deeper meaning of things.. and the stories are rarely clichéd...  =)

   so there... ive updated... gonna go watch taiyou! haha.. im so naughty n bad!! go do research lah bluegreen! =p ok ma?

wassalam..bye!
ja ne!

p/s: i really think i can write better at night... my b my right side of the brain is more active at that time...?

bismillah and assalamualikum minna-san~!

   yatta~!! finally im home~~ ive nvr been away from home this long!! i ws practically wailing n moaning abt goin home for at least 1 week b4 i really get to go home! my hsm8 said, if im like this evntho im still in the same state [im just an hour away from home actually..], how will i live overseas? hahahaaa.. i know that'll b one of the toughest time i'll have... but it'll b a great adventure! huhuu...

   ok, id like to appologize if later on u find this entry a bit crappy [[yes, i like to use that word to describe my entries..]] cause seriously i think my english is starting to get rusty... i dunno why... myb cause, yes i hv eng class 2 hrs a week, but i dunno.. i feel kinda, erm.. lack of english expose? ergh! see i cant evn describe it! hmm... lets just say i hvnt heard or conversed [[dialogue or monologue]] a lot of english lately... lack of tv and internet main reasons?? yes probably... and less monolouge.. im not thinking to myself lately.. myb i dont have time to talk to "the other me".. [[i know that sounds a bit creepy.. but its not... really... she's my +ve force... ok bluegreen, stop creeping people out! ^^|]] <-- see, that's her... =p hahahahaha... suddenly i think i sound really crazy.. ah well.. what ever.. the main point is, sorry for the extra crappy english in this entry cause my english is a bit rusty... ^^ period.

   so anyway, its lovely to be home... tho being away from it for so long makes me forget just by a tiny fraction how it was at home.. how it looks, the familiar scent, how it feels.... new things got old, old things get chucked away n replaced with new ones, my lil baby sister's vocab increased a bit, my younger siblings look bigger and etc... in a way, seeing those changes gives a pleasant feeling... its like "waa~h im finally home~!" and thats only after a month being away from it... so im looking forward to have that kind of feeling again.. myb it'll evn feel better cause i'll b further away from home n for a longer period too... huhuuu~ so i think i found sth here... bt im not sure... i think.. myb if there werent any adversity encountered, we wouldnt appreciate the simple but beautiful things in life... neh? =)

   i dunno what else to blab... talk abt study? yeah its quite ok... hardwork is forever essential in every thing we do.. oh.. that reminds me... now we've got the best lecturers there r in ktt for maths and physics... n they both [[mr.zaini and mr.razib]] kept on rekindling and burning our spirits and motivation to try our best... yes i admit smtms i dont like hearing what they say, but they're saying it to help us.. to give as a bit jolt or sth... to open our eyes to the real world.. sth like that... huhuu.. a-level is not like spm... nothing such as last minutes can make u succeed... also, learn from your mistakes as well as others.. a sad statistic this time around.. abt half of the seniors cant get they butts out of malaysia... i dunno what'll become of them... but i dont want to be in the same puddle as they are... so new spirits are afire! [[bluegreen flames are blazing~~ ^^!]] i brought back a huge stack of books to revise and im not gonna leave it terlambak like that till the end of this hols... study! ganbatte ne!! jia you! ^.^  
[[bt anywy, i still had to finish nobuta wo produce first so i can study in peace.. =p so no studying done so far... ^^]]

   our mid-sem sucks... well at least i think mine did... every paper was so hard! when i read the question i felt like, urgh~ wth r these?? its like ive never learnt anything! but mind you, i did study ok.. day n nite.. and no, i didnt do it last minute... well at least i started to read bits here n there arnd 3-2 weeks b4... ergh~! anyway.. let bygones be bygones... hold on to what you've learned in the past and keep on walking towards the future... time flies... the future you see far away is really a few steps away.. and the question i must ask myself is, in what manner would i walk towards it?

   my hols arent that long... and so far.. i see 2 things i must do which was given by the lecturer... the same lecturer to b exact.. 
         1. do 3 [[or did she say all?]] tests in ielts book 3.. 
         2. plenty of research for the debate
yes... im in a debate despite my stutterings when i speak n my limited vocabulary.. omygosh~! bttr start NOW!

   ok... 2 tell ya the truth, ive been writing this for like 4 days now.. since i only limit myself to writing at nite only plus im like so lazy plus ppl r always wanting to use the comp or lappy.. so there...

   wassalam..bye!

p/s: so i know this entry is like junk...

p/s: Happy happy Birthday to my best fren tkah~! u're now [[really old!!]] 19!! yikes~! i hvnt bought you any present yet!! can i just treat you some cakey myb? =p nway, love ya [[lun..ok joking~ ^^]] loads n loads no matter how old you get!! hohoo...  btw, her birthday's on feb 4th... =)

bismillah and assalamualaikum....

hyuu~ hyuu~ huhuhuu... ok.. in like a few days i'll officially break my own set record of staying in KTT!! haha.. so far i think i only stayed put for like 2 weeks and then *triing~* im back home.... hahaa... so bcus they scheduled the replacement class for chinese new year later on for like what? 3 consecutive weekends, i have to endure almost ONE MONTH of being homeless!!! haha... yeah i know ive no rite to say that... astaghfirullah...

   so anyway, yes ive been stuck n will be stuck in this ever wonderful world of KTT [[haha..]] for a few more weeks.. y e y . . . huhu.. really missing what it feels like to be at home... altough i'll just grumble abt being home once i get my butt in there for like a day or too... so you see.. thats what we are... [[ok i am than!]] always ungratefull... always wishing for sth else... taking for granted what we already have... aiyoh~ ok.. so now i see... just cherish what ever i have now! heh.. itu pun br nk nmpk.. peng~ but i miss home anyhow... its just home.. u know? evn its not that great smtms, but thats where you live n grow n grow n live... haha.. its where your heart is....

   aft reading a translated version of yalun's blog, i kinda somehow got this i dunno clearer vission of blogging?? cause he always said that ppl kept telling him what to write on his blog and he said if he did that, than he cant b himself you know? ok im not saying i totally agree nor disagree with his statement there, but i kinda find it related to what ive been always thinking... ppl wud want me to write sth that promote goodness n stuff so that itd be meaningful n so on.. yes i do... but i just cant do it... at least not here... here is just a place where id record my life.. at least bits of it.. huhu.. n myb i cant do that bcus i dont have adequate knowledge to place here... so so far, im giving whatever i have... myb in that field im more ok with talking.. know what i mean? ok wtvr..

   so ive been pretty busy lately.. class is well packed + night classes + homeworks  pilling up [[like my unwashed laundry]] by the day.. but im rly trying hard you know.... im less procastinating! seriously~! haha... ok bkn nk bangge diri heh... [[just wanna say.. now evrythg reminds me of home.. laundry, meals.. even my math lecturer reminded me of my dad! and dr.puji reminds me of my mom! haha... ]] n my gosh! its allmost 1p.m!! noo~!

   the truth is, i ws actually doing some research here in our appartment on ayu's laptop for my bio presentation regarding global distribution of coronary heart disease.. i ws researching abt cholesterol and also searching for some map of finland n spain.. map thingy done... cholesterol... err.. yeah kinda but i dunno.. i still want more  info u kno... but its late n ive gotta get some sleep.. cause my bodys not in the fittest condition having just recovered from a high fever yesterday... aiyoh~ that ws a scary time.. shivering n thinking thatll be my last nite. =p ok so many things learned from that tho.. alhamdulillah... and many things actually i wanna type abt.. but time is always jealous of us blogging here... huhu..

   so myb i'll continue this in a few days/ weeks ok.... act. my housemates kept asking me whats my blog add! but no i said go look for it yourself.. i even gave them what to type out on the search engine! haha... ok sleep!

wassalam..bye! oyasumi~!

p/s: masa itu kehidupan... 
pps: sorry for this entry being a lil [[im ok if you consider it "a lot" frankly speaking ^^]] crappy... im rushing... as usual.. turn a blind eye on the spammar and grelling mistakes... and turn a creative brain on to decipher the true meaning of this pile of currypaps... =p

bismillah and assalamualaikum minna-san~!

currently listening to xin wo! ge ai lor~ =p

   anyway, xin wo means new home... or so i think.. thats what i found out tho... why xin wo? cause im gonna talk abt my xin wo! haha act. its not new.. and its not mine.. and its not exactly a home.. ^^ haha... i know im talking craps again... anyway, i ws refering to the appartment where i live in back in ktt.. mayb cause my housemates are now of the same age of me, i find it more bearable to spend the weekend at the college... mayb id better do that more frequent for this semester as i hv a major exam by the end of it... so my new resolve is, i'll try not to go back every week but only once a fortnight! hahaha.. and its a lot easier to ask for help in studies now that i live with my classmates and jan [[she's in all17]]...

   i dunno what to update!!!! [[i turned xin wo off cos i cant think properly]] oh.. the other day me n my housemates went to giant nilai to shop for some groceries for our xin wo! [[i just love to use that word =p]] haha.. every now n then we'll laugh at our own silliness as its everones 1st time shopping for those things... we made a list b4 we shop and evn estimated how much everything would cost! the most memorable thing abt it was the garlic... aft weighing only one carrot, one cucumber and like 6 red chilis in separate plastic bags, me and rin wont want to go and weigh abt 2 cloves of garlic and like 6 red onions! why? cause aft weighing those, the garlic only costs RM0.07!! LOL! and when i ws bagging those, i only took ONE clove but the rest said sikit sgt! amek la dua! haha.. i wonder how much one clove would cost?! 3.5cents?? hahaha....  and we estimated it to be 1 ringgit! so obviously, we didnt go over budget =p ok i know we left out some of the items.. thats why we made it thru the budget...

   last wednesday we had our first night class... with mr.zaini... he had us take "a test to indicate potential of scoring A grade in  physics A-level examination" thats abt what he wrote on the paper.. huhu... it was............ok i guess... ive always been rubbish in physics.. and hey, did i mention that i didnt fail my physics after all? huhuu.. i really have to stdy hard on that particular subject... i hope, in getting mr.zaini as our physics lecturer in place of ms.shima, would be a great help.. he is a well experienced lecturer in physics tho... =)

   oh n after that test we had a movies night~! feeling a bit hungry aft the test [[i know the test hasnt got anything to do with being hungry.. its just us =p]] we fried some nuggets and hot dogs and watched 2 movies! except for jan cause her class starts at 8 the next day while our class starts at 1pm! huhuu.. we wtchd the prince n me and just my luck.. i already watch the 1st one tho.. so i ws the one who flung my pillow at ayu's laptop when there were unappropriate scenes.. seriously... i think a movie or a book can sell even if you dont have those scenes... i think i already wrote this b4.. wtvr...

   hmm... oh n the other day i had to conduct my own usrah~! i dont know how i did.. i hope the messages get thru... and there's always a good in everything... Allah knows best! =)

tats all... wassalam bye!

p/s: sorry for all the grammar mistakes and spellings as well... i cant work properly during this time of the day... =p

bismillah n assalamualaikum minna-san~!

hyuu hyuu~ first, id like to wish all a Happy Eidul Adha! yeah i now its over for days...

   i had a great eid this yr.. Alhamdulillah.. hmm... there're lots to tell but so little time!! [[im going ack to ktt in a few hrs..!]] so i'll just pin some points.. =p

   =) back to KTT last week ws a jumbled up sth of things.. [[totally not making sense i know..]] razan and rin moved in.. ayu still not back from t'ganu... kemas rumah a lot! cuci bathroom and dapo! jan bli vacuum~! haha.. cleaning'll b easier.. =p

   ^ ^  raye aji at ipoh ws fun! i went home d day b4 raye frm ktt n we were out for ipoh at abt 4a.m! i didnt sleep frm te moment i arrived home till im ridding in the car.. no i wsnt busy packing for raye cos i already had my bag ready frm ktt... instead i watched ko one till my mom came to wake us up at 3.am! haha.. terok tol! hmm.. at ipoh there wr already half of wancho's children... and later on wancho and the rest of her familyh arrived.. we had endless of laughter and noise making playing UNO like we used to since we were young! evn the grown ups were tempted to join us! LOL~! haha.. i wonder if we'll still play this game when we're all rly grown up.. ^^ i hope we will.. it kinda gathers us 2gthr in a circle.. huhu ^ ^

   hmm.. that's all i guess... i rly dont hv much time.. gtg!

wassalam..bye!

p/s: respect others n they'll respect u...

bismillah n assalamualaikum minna-san...

gaaaanN~! holiday's over! nooo0~! huhuuu... i sound like an 8 year old instad of 18... ^^ well.. what can i do... i only look 15 anyway.. =p [[that's a fact... ppl i seldom meet would always ask me "tingkatan brape?".. even my grandma said i look like a form three student...]]

   i reread Flowers for Algernon... i dunno, but theres sth rlly different abt ths book compared to others u see.. i think its like, if i read a book thats really impressive normally it would touch my heart, but this bok touches my mind.... is there supposed to be a difference? but that's what i felt anyway.. mayb it got me thinking abt our mind and how great it is... [[it really is..]] and how our mind is the root of our personality... u shud read this book seriously... oh n i thot of a very interesting question towards the end of the book and i wish charlie gordon and the team did too... what'll happen if they performed the operation again? would charlie regain the memories he had when he was once smart? and if he did, wouldnt he be like super genius or sth? urgh i think he'll explode by then.. =p haha... cause he'd have to go through the personality change all over again.. but hmm...but is it possible that the operation could really be done in the real life? i think it would be quite dangerous if it can.. ok im totally typing out craps here.. anyway, i wrote a long2 summary of this book sometime in June last year.. just now i read it again and found out it was all absolute crap! seriously im not exagerating! i got all the points mixed up and my english is filthy! ok i know it still is..

   hmm.. anyway talking abt minds, at on time, charlie gordon realised that his mind would suddenly come up with a solution when his mind is not fully conscious... like when he's abt to sleep or sth.. when i read abt that i think he's rite cause i think i've experienced the same thing but i cant remember when or what i thot abt.. but hey! just this morning, a solution came up when i woke up at 5 a.m! yesterday i ws really bothered abt sth that has to do wth downloading sth so when it sddnly woke up a thot ran across my mind it said "i didnt save the torrent file! mayb thats why it didnt start!" haha.. but unfortunately that wasnt the solution at all... but that was one major possibility tho cause it happened b4.. ^^ ok total craps! sorry! oh n besides the "solution" i woke up thinking "esok balek daaaaa~~~" hahaha...

   urgh i have an uneasy feeling abt how i spent this holiday... 3 weeks is like 3 hours~! [[melampau gle!]] but 3 weeks or 3 hours is enough to get all my brain cells flaccid! yeah well look at what ive been doing these hols... a whole season of anime, 2 novels [[remember me by mary higgins clark and flowers for algernon by daniel keyes]] , a whole season of heroes + 6 eps of the heroes ssn2, KO One, fahrenheit, ya lun, movies and etc... nothing beneficial or accademic at all!!  bak kate abah, "merugikan brain cells je!" ^^ ...the contents of my school bag remain untouched.. i hope i didnt get too rusty tho... i'll have to touch those in a moment.. i think i made a list of things i have to bring back to college n kept it in my pencil case.. huhuu...

   nero da gile... my folder's overloaded with movies that i cant burn cause nero wont work! dwnlded a new nero but cant extract it.. have to use a software that's alien to me... need abah's help in the end... actually, i think i can solve that problem.. but i think my brain cells r really flaccid cause i rly cant bring myself to read the guide.. urgh! i hate it when i feel like this... ususally id love to learn sth new when it involves computers, softwares and all those stuff..  i need to clear my head i little.. mybe the end of holidays is a good thing for me.. time to get the machines running... yosh..ganbatte~!

   ok.. i dont know what else to say... new semester starts in 2 days... 1st sem final exam results awaits me in a few days.... bad marks, failures... bring it on... *sigh~*

Shakespear said, "Nothing is so common as the wish to be remarkable" [[seriously, ko one's influence.. =p]]

wassalam..bye!

p/s: i ws infected by sth the last few weeks but im recovering, Alhamdulillah.. =) sickness is a blessing... 

1. its a test from Allah...
2. i get to know a knew kind of illness 
3. i get to go to the clinic and everytime i meet dr.zana, she boosts my determination to b a doctor...
4.  while i ws waiting to be called in, i read a magazine..well, the back of a magazine to b exact.. and i found an inportant thing.. 
         one of the 10 people considered as cruel/evil [[kejam]] is those who can read the quran but didn't read at least 100 ayat a day...

bismillah and assalamualaikum minna-san~!

   yes i know it's been like centuries since i updated this blog... and as usual i've got several excuses on that matter =)

   1. im super lazy in anything.. [[not proud of it ok]]
   2. at one time there ws only one computer available and someone started watching fruits basket on that and everyone ended up watching that till the end so no chance of using the compp there.. [[fruits basket is kinda ok tho im a bit confused abt the whole akito thing..shoujo!]]
   3. blk kampung for almost a week for yop's wedding.. zero chance to online.. 
   4. i got hooked to heroes.. so my time is fully spent on watching those... =p
   5. just a few days a go blogdrive was unaccessible [[if thats a word..kinda malas to consult dictionary here]] both account and blog...
   6. im a normal being and as you shud know, we are all infected with an inevitable disease scientifically known as lazymia.. what... u dint know?  &_&
   7. and so on and so forth...

   haha... im really terok  ne? so lets get to updates... [[oh but wait.. i just want to note that its kinda hard to type and listen to music at the same time.. i rly cant.. but im trying to.. multi tasking]]

   hmm.. lets talk exams! now that its over im greatly relieved! but the results are not sth id b looking forward to at all knowing what i did to my papers.. i wont b surprised at all if i manage to fail physics tis time.. i really did mess up that paper.. or rather left it clean abt 0.5 of the whole ppr? haha.. bio was a bit ok but ppr 2 ws real pain in the brain.. and chemistry is a funny+embarassing kind of a story... to shorten it, i'll just say i entered the exam hall like abt 10 minutes aft the exam starts and made my way to the only vaccant seat right infront of the invigilators table.. all heads turned my way and my classmate's jaw practically dropped... yes.. the next few days aft that the word mencapap/mencapub/howeveruwant2spellit became extra sensitive to me.. haha! maths was ok... =)

   and then its holidays~! yeay!!  wasted the a few days on anime watching n then we were off to ipoh.. helped out a little at wandah's for the reception... and alhamdulillah n the reception went well.. extremely tired but it ws a fun day with full of laughs especially that nite! and then here i am back again.. but i'll soon b going back to college in a little 5 more days i think... *humongous sigh~* but my friends will be moving into my appartment for this sem! it is a bit sad to part with my kind seniors.. but every little changes in life is yet another adventure to look forward to ne?

   you know, lately or mybe its been quite sometime now, ive realized that our subconscious thinking is very powerfull than we think it is.. yes i know this isnt a new thing.. i ve heard it b4 many times but it just didnt hit me yet at first... but aft pondering on it for a bit i, i believe in it 100% based on my past experience.. so no matter what, just think positive.. no matter how hard or bad sth looks, it only looks that way.. u dont know it until ure really there doing it.. just believe in urself and what ure capable of.. sometimes its even good to believe ur smarter or stronger than u really are.. because then, that kind of thinking will motivate ur mind subconsciously to work even more than it usaually did.. so becareful of what ure thinking consciously or subconsciously.. [[i know it sounds crazy]] ;) it also helps to be at peace with urself in every situation u encounter.. think happy thoughts and encourage urself to feel good or happy.. i notice that if im not at peace with myself, everything seems so wrong! i cant and wont do what im supposed to do.. just think that everythings going to be alright no matter how bad ur trouble is... the rain would come every once in a while, but most of the time the sun is shining and the sky is pure blue~! [[but dont think its alright to the extent of not doing anything to solve it ok]] believe in Allah, but dont forget to believe in urself.. =) there's always a silver lining for every cloud... [[is that how ur supposed to say it?]]

   huhu.. ok thats the end of my philosophy-ish talk.. =p im mainly motivating myself u know but i hope it helps u readers as well.. =) i really need every bit of motivation for this coming semester as at the end of it i'll be sitting the Cambridge AS Examination.. and my goal is 4A's! jia you! ganbatte!! fighto!! 

   oh.. and my heart felt takziah to my friend Ara who's father passed away last wednesday if im not mistaken... and also al-fatihah for ustazah sabariah from smkssaas who passed away just this morning... innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raaji'un.. [[from Allah we came from and to Allah we will return...]] allahyarhamah ustazah sabariah passed away of cancer.. she ws a very kind person and although she nvr taught my class, i still got to know her and she knew me too cause she ws in charge of bringing students to the MTQ which i participated from f3 to f5... semoga Allah mencurahkan rahmat ke atas beliau dan menempatkannya dlm kalangan org2 yg beriman..

   i think that'll end my post... i dunno what else to write... oh.. here's a good question to ponder on.. i got it somewhere either on fs or ym.. yes we are muslims..but are we mu'min?   

wassalam..bye!

p/s: mata ashita remix lwk gle tp sgt best~! kawaii~~